Balance is a tricky thing and has always been hard to find, now so even more than ever! To me, balance means that I can handle life all elements included without feeling like I am dropping the ball on something or being pulled away from something I love and want to do. When I am focused on something, I am determined, motivated, and pretty clear-headed about it. There is a delicate art to balancing internal and external elements. I want to do it all... I want to balance my relationships, hobbies, work and more as well as look at what I am doing in life in a reflective manner in order to learn and grow as they happen. Often we look back on things and learn from experiences and mistakes but some can be learned in the moment or at the very least soon thereafter.
Internal vs External
The challenges of balancing mind, heart and health with those of work, social, family, and fun is no easy task. Every now and then I take some time to really look at my life and how I'm feeling in order to see the areas that I may be neglecting. In the past, I have focused more on external balance and I am working on adding internal balance as well. I make many lists in order to keep myself focused and on task, in fact, my calendar is overloaded with reminders, appointments and so much more. This is where I try to find balance, to keep the structure in order stay focused but also to still allow spontaneity. Farrel helps me with this areas as he is my supporter, motivator, and helps me to stay focused in the hard times. He helps me to challenge my inner demons (fears, worries, doubts, negative self talk) and also helps me to celebrate my little accomplishments along the way. Just like accomplishing any goal in life, it takes time and effort to overcome my habits and create new ones.
There are many things in my life I must balance. Currently I am balancing:
- Being at work approximately 13 hours a day on night shift, 7 days a week
- In the gym 2-3 hours a day
- Making time for prepping food
- Spending time with Farrel
- Planning a wedding
- Relaxing for a minute
- And.. oh yeah.. sleep!
My fitness aspirations are VERY time-consuming and some days take every last bit of energy I have. This being said, I need to focus pretty hard to find balance on those days. I have many goals, BIG goals, that I WILL achieve! With time, dedication and a lot of determination... I will get there. In the meantime, I go to work each day and push as hard as I can before work at the gym, after work at the gym and keep my nutrition on point. There are sacrifices that must be made, as with everything and although I know there are more with the lifestyle I have chosen, it's about making time for the most important and managing my priorities.
“To live a more balanced life, glance at the past, live in the present, and focus on the future.”-Todd Stocker
Although, my fitness goals and aspirations are very important to me and take a lot of my time... I make sure to make time to spend with Farrel outside of the gym as well. He shows so much love and support for me each and every day... I want to make sure he knows just how much he is appreciated and loved. Farrel is my soul mate, my rock and so much more. Family comes first and although sometimes I have to make a conscious effort to make down time and just relax even if it is just for a 1/2 hour television show or us enjoying dinner together (although I'm eating out of Tupperware) it is our time to relax and just be together. We are just 3 months from saying 'I do' and I couldn't be more happy with life and all the wedding planning even though sometimes it is a struggle to get things accomplished from another state, with only and iPhone for internet some days and working the night shift. I manage to get it all in and I cannot wait to walk down the aisle to start our lives as one. Balance requires work but a necessary aspect of life. Balance cannot be found but is created. One must take time to reflect, organize, and evaluate their habits and activities in order to create a balance that works for them. Everyone is capable of creating balance with some practice, reflection and a great support system.